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Also, I am torn with jealousy. I hate Jinny because she shows me that my hands are red, my nails are bitten. I love with such ferocity that it kills me when the object of my love shows by a phrase that he can escape. He escapes, and I am left clutching at a string that slips in and out among the tree-tops. I do not understand phrases.

Meeting and parting, we assemble different forms, make different patterns. But if I do not nail these impressions to the board and out of the many men in me make one; exist here and now and not in streaks and patches, like scattered snow wreaths on far mountains; and ask Miss Johnson as I pass through the offices about the movies and take my cup of tea and accept also my favourite biscuit, then I shall fall like snow and be wasted.

Percival has died (he died in Egypt; he died in Greece, all death are one death).

I sat staring in my own room. By five I knew that you were faithless. I snatched the telephone and the buzz, buzz, buzz of its stupid voice in your empty room battered my heart down, when the door opened and there you stood. That was the most perfect of our meetings. But these meeting, these partings, finally destroy us.

You are you. [...] But if you one day do not come after breakfast, if one day I see you in some looking-glass perhaps looking after another, if the telephone buzzes and buzzes in your empty room, I shall then, after unspeakable anguish, I shall then -for there is no end to the folly of the human heart- seek another, find another, you.

I hold a stalk in my hand. I am the stalk. My roots go down to the depths of the world, through earth dry with brick, and damp earth, through veins of lead and silver. I am all fibre. All tremors shake me, and the weight of the earth is pressed to my ribs.